16 Weeks Pregnant [Baby Number 2]

Due Date: June 28th 2017

Mood: I'm feeling quite anxious because I have an appointment with FACES coming up this week. While I know, they are there to help me, and offer me support, it is still very daunting. I haven’t explained much about FACES but it is basically a charity organisation that is based where I live. They help mothers and mothers to be with a range of things. My midwife referred me because of my history of mental health, one of the things that worries me about being pregnant again is that unwelcome gift of depression that I seem to receive. I have come to accept that I will probably struggle with it this time around again – but I feel like I will be more prepared. During my pregnancy with Emily I received little support regarding depression, that is something that I want to make sure doesn’t happen this time. 

I have a meeting with a lady from FACES today, I’m not sure what to expect really. I deliberately didn’t google them, because I feel like if I did then I would refuse the help, which I know will come in handy when I am further along. It turns out the lady (we will call M) was lovely and it was so much easier for me to talk to her than I thought it would be. FACES are a well-established local charity which offer practical and emotion support to families under stress – this can be for lots of different reasons. For me they intend to help with my depression, the idea is that M will be able to be there to support me in the newborn days, also on the run up to having baby E. I’m hoping that having her will lead to me being a lot less anxious, but also knowing that I have someone who I can reach out to and ramble away to if needs me. 

She is also willing to help me overcome challenges, as you may know if you read my blog often, I was scared to take Emily to baby group. Something that I really wanted to do was go out and make friends, but my PND stopped me doing this. M is going to come along with me to groups until I feel comfortable to go myself as I really feel like it will help me. Basically, I am thankful to have the support, and even though I might not use it, it is nice to know it’s there if I need it. 

Symptoms: My HG is still there with full force, although the midwife said there was a possibility of it fading at 15 weeks, it still hasn’t. I am finding different ways to get through the day. Eating small portions of bland food is helping. I still can’t stomach hot food, but there is some improvement which is good. I also still have lots of pain and discomfort in my stomach, I know this is just where I have pulled muscles from being sick.

Sleep: I am finding it extremely hard to get comfortable at night, even with four pillows I still struggle. Night time also seems to be the worst for my sickness to. I often find myself waking up to be sick which isn't helping. Luckily, because the side effects of my medication is extreme tiredness I am able to fall asleep quite easy, its just staying asleep that I am struggling with.

Movement: I have been feeling bean move and flutter for the past week, but yesterday (14/01) I felt bean kick! Sam got to feel it too, I'm sure this is much earlier than it was with Emily, but it was really reassuring to feel bean move and kick!

Food Cravings: Red Grapes and Banana's.

Gender: Unsure (but I think it is a girl!)

Highlight of the week: Listening to Emily telling her toys that mama has a baby (Bebe as she calls it) in her tummy. She really is starting to understand what is happening and often gives my teeny tiny bump a kiss and rub. She also likes to play peek-a-boo with baby, by lifting my top up to see my bump then dropping it down again saying 'boo' each time. I say bump, but I actually don’t really have one yet. Unfortunately, I am still losing weight. 

Looking forward to: Finding out the gender of our little bean. Sam and I are far too impatient to wait and see what baby is, I have no idea how people leave it to be a surprise. We have a private scan booked as I am feeling anxious about beans development due to the amount of weight I have lost. I'm sure everything will be fine, they will also be able to tell us the gender as I will be 17 weeks + 3.

Baby developmentThe baby is being very active, although you cannot feel them doing somersaults and rolling around because the amniotic fluid he's floating in cushions the movement.

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