A Letter To My Daughter About Becoming A Big Sister

Little E,

The past few months have been tough for you, while I have watched your excitement grow as you learn more about your baby sissy. There are a few things I want you to know, I’m sorry I haven’t been the best mama I could be. I know you don’t really understand why mama is so poorly, or why I can’t play with you as much as I want to, but know if I could I would. While I know giving you a sibling to grow up with is one of the greatest things me and your daddy could give you. It’s been hard, and quite honestly if I knew I would suffer this much with the sickness, or just how much it would disrupt our normal routine. I would have perhaps delayed it. Even though we planned this, I didn’t think it would be this hard, and I feel so guilty for being so poorly.

16 Weeks Pregnant [Baby Number 2]

Due Date: June 28th 2017

Mood: I'm feeling quite anxious because I have an appointment with FACES coming up this week. While I know, they are there to help me, and offer me support, it is still very daunting. I haven’t explained much about FACES but it is basically a charity organisation that is based where I live. They help mothers and mothers to be with a range of things. My midwife referred me because of my history of mental health, one of the things that worries me about being pregnant again is that unwelcome gift of depression that I seem to receive. I have come to accept that I will probably struggle with it this time around again – but I feel like I will be more prepared. During my pregnancy with Emily I received little support regarding depression, that is something that I want to make sure doesn’t happen this time. 

12 Weeks Pregnant [Baby Number 2]

Due Date: 28th June

Mood: Tomorrow is our 12 weeks’ scan, and I feel like our 8-week scan was ages ago, when it was only about 4 weeks. I’m feeling worse than I have felt in ages, I feel anxious and I can’t seem to pin point why. I know that I am feeling more depressed, but that is more down to the fact I feel like such a rubbish mama to Emily. I am really struggling to do the simplest of things, such as get up in the morning. You’d be surprised just how draining it can be being sick.

8 Weeks Pregnant [Baby Number 2]

Oh my goodness, the sickness is well and truly kicking my arse. I was sick with Emily, so I did think that I would get it again, I also thought I would be a little more prepared for it and able to deal with whatever was thrown at me. Boy was I wrong, you can read all about my battle with Hyperemesis Gravadarum in a separate post. I figured if I added that post and this one together we would be here for a long time.

Hyperemesis Gravidarum & I

Hyperemesis Gravidarum has literally taken over my life. it has made me feel things I never thought I could feel. it has consumed all my energy and taken more from me than I will ever be able to explain. When I was pregnant with Emily, I had serious morning sickness, at the time I thought it was horrendous, I was sick from the moment I found out I was pregnant and was still being sick during labour. Little did I know, it can get worse. A lot worse. I have literally been unable to do anything, I lost my independence, I haven't been able to cook, oh and the mum guilt, it is the absolute worst. I have become so dependent on medication and Sam that I feel useless.

6 Weeks Pregnant [Baby Number 2]

Well, I never thought that I would be writing this kind of blog post ever again, but here we are. I must admit, even though I always said I didn’t want another and I was happy with just Emily – I’m delighted to say that we’re expecting again. Yes! Emily is being promoted to a big sister!

Raising Emily and ...

It's with great joy that Sam and I can announce we are expecting Baby E #2! Emily is absolutely thrilled about becoming a big sister! While the journey to get here hasn't been easy, it has been so worth it, we cannot wait to meet our baby girl!

Kinetic Sand Review

Emily has always been a fan of messy play, or sensory play. Anything that she can explore, stick, or make a mess with and she is happy as can be. We were recently given the opportunity to try out some kinetic sand, and I’m so glad we got the chance to as it has been the perfect activity for Emily. As you may know I’m currently pregnant with baby 2, and have been suffering with sever sickness. The kinetic sand has given me the opportunity to still play with Emily, without being sick. It is super easy to clean up, if Emily drops a bit on the floor you can simply pick it up without the hassle of it falling apart like normal sand. It also doesn’t have a fragrance so it has kept the sickness at bay.
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