Oh Christmas tree

Sooooooo, I have a confession to make, I put my Christmas tree up in November, I couldn't help it. The coca-cola lorry advert is on the television. It's officially Christmas time! As you may or may not know, We haven't long moved into our little home, So the only Christmas decorations we currently have up is the tree. Here is some snaps for you too see.

Christmas Decor

Picking our Christmas decorations is always a tough one. This year is a lot of firsts for us, It will be our first Christmas as a family of 3, It's also the first Christmas that both me and Sam are not working and its the first Christmas in our own home. Last but not least it's Emily's first Christmas! The advantage of it being our First Christmas in a new home is we have no tree, and only a few tree ornaments from last year. This year there are a lot of gorgeous decorations, because our lounge is brown, we are going for a red and gold theme. Personally I like red and gold because it always feels more festive. So here is my little wish list of bits i have been lusting over.

These are just a few little bits I've found, to be honest I much prefer going into a shop and looking at all the decorations. Don't worry though I'll be sure to write a blog post all about it!

are you going for a theme this year?

2 month update

Emily is 8 weeks old today, a whole 2 months! Doesn't time fly. Here's a little picture of my little beauty. It's taken a lot for me to post this of her.

If you follow us on Instagram you can watch Emily grow.

She weighs just over 9lb 6oz. I can't believe that people actually push out babies that big. Ouchie! Sam's cousin had her baby 2 weeks before I had Emily, completely natural birth, and she weighed a whooping 9lb 11oz. I have to hand it to her, I wouldn't have been able to do that!

Anxiety & Me

This blog post is completely out of the blue, but it is something I want to talk about, and I think will help me if I write it all out. When I first started this blog, It was more for my own personal escape then anything else. I wanted a place where I could ramble away, I could let it all out. Now I know all too well that this world that we live in isn't always a very nice place, People can be judgmental and hurtful with thier comments I'm well aware of that. I myself am one of those people that takes everything to heart, Even if it wasn't meant in a horrible way, it effects me and bothers me no end. I'll stick a smile on my face but deep down inside it is eating away at me. I've had a lot of good and bad feedback regarding my blog, I find what I do put on here is just a 'little part of me'. You see the bits of my life that I want you too see. Honestly, if I am having a bad day, then I tend not to blog, but I'm questioning why I do that. After all this is my blog, It really doesn't bother me if 1 person reads it, or none at all.

Christmas, Gifts, & Shopping

Well it is official, the holidays are coming, Christmas is well on the way. The shops are bursting with gift wrap, and cards. Not to mention all that yummy chocolate that we will be complaining about in January. The big brands are bringing out there magical Christmas adds and It's officially Christmas now the Coca-Cola advert has graced our televisions. This Christmas is going to be even more magical for us, it's our first Christmas as a family of 3. Even though Emily will only be just over 3 months old, I want it to be special. After all you only have one first Christmas. There is always going to be pictures for her to look back on when she is older. 

I've been fighting with myself as to whether I purchase gifts for Emily, Now don't get me wrong, I absolutely want to, and there is plenty of things I would love to buy her, but is it worth it? Let me explain myself before you bite my head off and brand me a evil mummy. Emily's still going to be really small, she isn't going to understand much, I know she will love the Christmas tree lights, and the amount of attention she will get, but she is the first grandchild, and the first great-grandchild on both sides. As you can imagine that means she is a very loved and spoilt little girl. She has already been brought so many lovely, thoughtful gifts. There isn't actually anything she needs right now. She has stacks and stacks of clothes from 0-3, 3-6 and even 6-9 months.

Emily's 1st Halloween

I just wanted to share a few photographs of Emily's first Halloween with you, We carved some pumpkins. Well I carved the pumpkins, which might I add they were completely hand drawn and they took me ages. Emily dressed up in a really cute little cat outfit, she had a matching pair of socks, and a little bib too. 

I hope you all had a happy Halloween!!

My mood diary

Things have been very hard emotionally. Since Emily has been born I have really struggled with knowing how I feel. I love her, she's gorgeous, and I was so scared that I wouldn't be able to bond with her. However I was very relieved that I didn't feel that way. Emily is now 7 weeks old, 8 on Friday, and it's just starting to kick in. I suppose its a mixture of having a baby, a not so perfect labour, and the moving. Then not to mention all of the various problems that we have faced since moving in. I have to admit it has really took its tole on me. I knew I was going downhill, I am loosing interest in things, and finding it really hard to get motivated. I don't want to get out of bed, I am also struggling with Emily. I felt like no matter what I did it wasn't good enough. 

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