I have to admit that I am really not a fan of Birthdays, I love other peoples birthdays, Buying gifts and picking out pretty wrapping. Yet when it comes to my birthday I absolutely hate it. I could give you a list as long as my arm as to why I don't like them, but where is the fun in that! The one thing that bothers me the most about birthdays, is all of the attention is one you, people buy you lovely gifts, give you cards, money or whatever. Which don't get me wrong is really nice, but it leaves me feeling awkward and uncomfortable. I don't know why it has this effect on me, it just does.

It was my birthday this month, and because I was poorly luckily I managed to get out of the birthday celebrations! Which made me happy in a sense. At the same time it really got me thinking. What happens in a couple of years when Baby E is old enough to know what a birthday is, and buys me a gift, makes me a card or whatever may happen. Am I going to be the same? I don't want to always feel this way, or seem ungrateful. I want to be able to enjoy it, do something special. I would never want little lady to feel this way about her birthday. I want to be able to make a fuss out of her, and buy her gifts that I know she will want and will love. I want to be able to mark that milestone with a happy occasion, Buy a gorgeous cake - in effect I just want to be able to spoil her!

I never had that when I was younger, I don't have a close relationship with my parents, it's never really bothered me because I've always been close to my grandparents and had them around me, but it bothers me now that I am older. I would love to be able to have the relationship with my mum where I could ring her up, arrange to do something, shopping, meals, anything just me and her. Sadly that is never going to happy, and not because I don't make the effort or try because believe me I have tried everything! She is just not really interested in doing that sort of thing. 

My question for you.. What do you love about your birthday? What makes you happy? I'd love to know if i am the only one who feels this way.


  1. I love the idea of birthdays but I often end up feeling let down by the reality of them. I guess I put too much expectation of how great they'll be on them?!
    I'm sure once baby is born though, you'll start to feel differently. I definitely get much more excited about my sons birthday than mine....everything is so much happier when you see it through the eyes of your child, even your own birthday!

    Thanks for linking up with #sundaybest!


    1. I always feel like i'm being a grump! I hope your right about seeing it through the eyes of Baby E. I think it will definitely help, and children always see the magic and fun in things!

  2. You're not alone in this, I hate it when my Birthday comes around. I don't expect anything from friends or family and always feel a little awkward when I am given something. I don't know what it is, I just don't like all the fuss around birthdays :S
    I'm sure when your little one is old enough to start making you cards or gifts you won't feel that way about theirs though. I'm awful with gifts from other people but ones that my children have made are different, special :) x

    1. I'm completely the same! with the gift receiving situation. gift giving i love and have no problem with. Joys of being socially awkward right?!x


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