30 & 31 Weeks Pregnant [Baby Number 2]


Due Date: June 28th, 2017

Mood: So I missed a week last week, but I was feeling so overwhelmed. I have been struggling a lot with my mood, especially anxiety. The more pregnant I get the more I begin to worry about various things. One of the biggest things for me at the moment, is the idea of being away from Emily while I have baby E. While that may not seem like such a big deal to many, it is to me as I haven't ever really left her, and the last thing I want her to feel is like she is being abandoned.

I have also been feeling really anxious about baby girl's arrival. One of the many things that worries me is missing the first moments with her like i did with Emily - I missed the first 2.5 hours of Emily's life as I was unconscious. So when I came around she was already changed, fed and weighed. While that doesn't seem like a massive thing, I felt like it was one thing that prevented me bonding with her straight away as I felt so guilty for missing those moments. I'm also worried about the possibility of my post natal depression returning, which there is a high chance of that happening.



Symptoms: I have had lots of pain, and braxton hicks. The sickness has been plaguing everything i do too, which is why I haven't really wrote anything on here, as I don't want to seem like a complete debbie downer about the whole thing - the truth is, its blooming hard to keep positive when your constantly worrying about things. I also am at risk of going into preterm labour (like I did with Emily - you can read that here) baby has her head down, and is pushing down. I have also been experiencing lots of contractions, pain and a little bit of discharge. Luckily its not progressed to anything just yet, but it is something that they are monitoring as the last thing we want is for her to be born yet. I want to keep her in there for aslong as possible!

They are also concerned about the size of baby girl as she isn't growing as she should be, she is underweight (for what she is supposed to be at this stage). They are putting this down to the fact I lost 3.5 stone at the beginning of my pregnancy, and the fact I am still being sick. We have tried lots of various combinations of anti sickness medication, but they don't seem to work. They work for about a week, and then it is as if my body gets used to them and they stop working. I'm still not quite at my pre-pregnancy weight yet either. As a result of her being small, It's left me with lots of mum guilt, as I feel like it is my fault. After all she is growing inside me, and it is me that can't really keep food down.

The consultant has also referred me for a psychiatric assessment, because I have suffered with PND and antenatal depression in my previous pregnancy, and I am showing signs again this time, they want to make sure that there is support in place encase I need it. While I won't go on medication (for personal reasons), I still need some kind of support, which they will be able to offer me.



Sleep: I'm not sleeping, I find that I am anxious more at night time, which makes it hard to fall asleep. I also really struggle to get comfortable, although my pregnancy pillow has been a absolute life saver my little bump is starting to get bigger now, making it almost impossible to find a comfortable position.

Movement: Baby is very active, especially when her sister is around. It's so cute that she reacts to her voice, and kicks her when Emily places her hand on my stomach. Emily wants to be very involved in the pregnancy, she often talks about her baby sister, and has been asking daily if she is coming today. I know they are going to have such a lovely strong bond. 

Food Cravings: I still have the same cravings, grapes straight from the fridge and ice pops. I don't really like food because I can't seem to keep it down, but grapes and ice pops always seem to do the trick.

Gender: It's a GIRL!

Highlight of the week: Having our growth scan, it was lovely to see baby girl again, and see her little heart beat away. Emily isn't allowed into the scans with us, which always makes me a little sad as I know she would love them. She does love the midwife appointments though, as she gets to hear her little sisters heartbeat on the doppler, and that always cheers her up. She loves to tell everyone it sounds like horses.

I also got sent a lovely little package from WaterWipes. A brand that I love, and used with Emily, and will be using this time again. 
WaterWipes have recently announced as sponsors for the new series of channel 4's One Born Every Minute. S0, sent me some samples of the wipes and goodies to enjoy while watching One Born Every Minute. I was already having a rough week, and feeling pretty down, so it did cheer me up a little bit, and I'm so thankful to get the opportunity to collaborate with lots of lovely brands.

Looking forward to: The pregnancy being over, and our family off four being complete. I hate feeling so poorly and depressed. I'm also currently in the mist of packing my hospital bag, which makes everything feel so much more real. I can't believe we are in the single week countdown. Anything that you think is a must for me to take?

Baby Development: Week 30: The lanugo, which has been protecting your baby's skin, is starting to wear off and most of it will have disappeared by the time she is born.
Week 31:  A pint and a half of amniotic fluid surrounds her, but that volume will shrink as she gets bigger and takes up more room in your uterus. Her eyesight continues to develop, though it's not very keen; even after she's born, she'll keep her eyes closed for a good part of the day. When she does open them, she'll respond to changes in light but will have 20/400 vision — which means she can only make out objects a few inches from her face.

2 comments

  1. That photo of Emily and bump is adorable! She's such a proud big sister already and I know she is going to be amazing when her baby sissy arrives! I completely understand how you feel, it's so hard to stay positive when there's so much stress and anxiety surrounding your pregnancy. Fingers crossed baby stays put a little while longer xx

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  2. I love these updates lovely. So detailed. I so hope she stays put for you. Thinking of you. You're amazing lovely! x

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