Friendship


Isn't it funny how friendship can spring out of nowhere. I have always loved blogging but I have never really been much of a sociable person. With my anxiety and PND I find it really hard to get to know someone who just gets me. Recently I started talking to Lorraine from babyypebbles, and she restored my faith in friendship again. I don't know what it was but we just clicked straight away. We have been non stop talking since last Friday, Lorraine lives doesn't live far from me which is really lucky. I feel like I have genuinely made a friend, and so has Emily. We met up on Monday and had such a great time, I have to say it is so refreshing to spend time with another mummy and actually feel comfortable enough to enjoy myself. It's also really nice for Emily, as I have previously said I don't have many friends who have babies who are a similar age to Emily. They are all a lot older, so watching her play with Penny was lovely. I'll share a few pictures with you..


Just look how cute they are together, considering there is a 2 month gap, Penny is older than Emily, you really wouldn't tell. I love Penny's little Minnie Mouse in the last picture, it was quite a story. I brought Penny a Minnie, and somehow the journey from the entrance of center MK to coming out we lost her. So after retracing our steps, and searching the Disney store for a Minnie, which let me tell you is pretty hard considering its what they sell. We had no luck, so I brought Penny a replacement. So If you find or have found a little Minnie in MK look after her well, she was ours.

I am so proud of myself, so much so that I had to document it to share with you, meeting up with Lorraine made me realize how far I have come, It's been such a long journey and battle for me. Sometimes I forget just how long it has been going on. When I first met Sam back in 2013, I was to scared to leave him in a shop to go and get milk myself, which was literally a couple of isles away from him. The fact that the supermarket was packed full of people, and it was loud just proved to much for me. I ended up having a panic attack, and that milk never did get purchased. On Monday I managed to tackle two buses and a train journey with a change all by myself! Obviously I had Emily with me, but I did it myself. To most of you that might be a small thing, but for me it is massive. I went on public transport, which is a trip for my anxiety. I didn't back out, I got there all by myself. I felt a panic attack coming on once when I was on the train and I managed to distract myself with Emily meaning the panic attack was avoided. I then met up with Lorraine, who although I felt like I knew really well was still a stranger. 


Sometimes I sit and doubt myself, I read back on a PND post that was published maybe a week ago, and wish to myself I wish I was still at that stage, because a lot of the time I back track. However that light at the end of the tunnel is there, I may not get rid of anxiety forever, and that is fine. As long as I can control it a bit better, and keep it at bay. So when your feeling low, and feeling like your not getting nowhere just remember it doesn't happen over night. I've been battling this for years, and although progress is slow. It is there and that is what is important. 

How do you deal with your anxiety?

8 comments

  1. Such a lovely post, so lucky you live so close together to meet up! They're so cute together :). Amazing to hear you speak so positively about your anxiety too xx

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    1. Thank you hun! It makes a change posting something so positive, but it feels good and I'm proud of my journey! Thanks for stopping by xx

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  2. Glad you girls had a lovely time, what a great post xxx

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    1. Thank you lovely! Emily and Penny loved each other, it was so sweet! xx

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  3. Such a lovely post. I haven't been shopping in MK in ages, but I think I must give it a go. Especially having a look in the disney store. :-)
    I find it difficult having all my friends living so far away from me and only one of them has a child. It does get a bit lonely. To be honest I am not sure I could of done the 2 buses and a train journey on my own. I still get a bit scared of public transport for some reason, but good on you. :-) x

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    1. Of course you could do it! I'm absolutely terrified of public transport, like I said it brought on a panic attack, but I played with Emily, interacted with her and it passed. I've been fighting my battle with depression anxiety for 4 years, and it gets easier, but if you don't try then you will never know. You shouldn't be scared of doing something. I love the Disney store, it amazing!! I know what you mean about it being lonely! That's why I'm giving myself that push and getting out there, if you ever want to chat you can tweet me or find me on social media :) thank you for stopping by xx

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  4. Sounds like a lovely day :) it's lovely you met someone who's baby is a smilar age to Emily, I don't really have any friends with children, and the few that I do are much older than Osian. Well done for making the trip and I'm glad your proud of yourself :) xx

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    1. Thank you, It really was. Yeah before meeting Lorraine and Penny, we didn't have any that were a similar age to Emily. It's nice when you meet someone you just click with, even better when they're a blogger too because they get it and don't think your crazy!! haha. Thank you for stopping by xx

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