Reasons to be happy #3

Meet Toni. :) Toni's my best friend, we've been friends for 16 years this year! Did you ever meet someone who you just got on with? Well that is us, we grew up together, she literally lives opposite my house.

 We used to play games like '41 & out' anyone ever play that? Someone counts to 41, everyone hides then has it get to the post (or what ever you pick) and say 41 and in Steph! We played curby and thought it was the best game ever! Brought penny sweets from our local shop, a can of apple tango and watched crystal maze! Seriously we thought we were the coolest!

Finding Out We Were Pregnant [Letter To My Daughter]

Dear, Our gorgeous baby
The first time I saw you, I couldn't believe my eyes. It was the 17th January. I was so poorly, I had been for weeks. Pregnancy has never been easy with you little one, you're a handful already. Your Dad rushed home from work to come to A&E with me, I had really bad stomach cramps and light bleeding, we sat in the waiting room for 3 hours to be seen, I was in floods of tears the whole time. 

See we knew I was pregnant from about 3 weeks, we took the test. A clear blue one to be precise, got the result 'Pregnant 1-2 weeks'. At that moment my heart missed a beat, I was so happy. Thinking about that happiness I felt while sitting in the waiting room was the only thing that gave me hope. After 3 hours of waiting, we got called in, they did a blood test, urine sample, and all these other tests, and said everything seemed to be Ok. However they were still a little concerned, especially since I had already miscarried, I was so terrified that we were going to lose you too.

25 Weeks Pregnant

How far along: 25 weeks
Total weight: Boo, I'm so rubbish, 4 weeks in a row that I haven't weighed myself, I promise I will weigh myself tomorrow.
Stretch marks: I have stretch marks appearing, :( boo, I bought some 'Palmers cocoa butter formula massage lotion for stretch marks', but unfortunately I can't use it because it contains Almond oil, I have a nut allergy, and it will irritate my skin. I've been searching for a nut-free one, with no success so far. If you have any recommendations please leave it below in the comments.
Sleep: Last night was the first night in about 3 weeks where I actually got sleep, I slept from 9pm all the way to 6am! brilliant! I was so refreshed, and happy. 

Wish List For Little Lady's Nursery

Today's a little wish list, do you ever find yourself lusting over things on the internet? I've been doing this constantly recently, maybe because I have a little lady on the way and there are so many things I want to get for her, or maybe because I'm indecisive. I will look at something, look again, and then look again, I'm incapable of making an on the spot decision if I want something. We're currently living with my parents while things get sorted out with our future house, I'm not going to lie, it is so stressful. What makes it worse is our stuff is scattered all over the place, I have boxes in my Nan's spare bedroom, stuff in my Grandmothers loft, My bedroom is full of boxes, as is Sam's bedroom at his mums. 

I've been buying bits and bobs as we've been going along, for example, I have already purchased most of the furniture for Baby E's bedroom. That may seem like it's a bit soon, but it honestly has been so much easier buying it over a longer period of time, than all at once when the house is sorted (Also because I'm rubbish at saving). These are the final little bits and bobs I need/want. 

Reasons to be happy #2

I previously said last week, I was going to make this a weekly thing. 

"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means you've decided to look beyond the imperfections"

I can't remember where I read that quote. Although It did make me think, at the beginning of 2014 I set myself some goals for the year ahead. One of them being 'try to embrace new things and be more positive/happy'. That, in turn, inspired me to write this blog post. I'm always overlooking the positive things in my life to focus on the negative. Reflecting on things that make you smile, or make you happy. 

Anxiety During Pregnancy

Please tell me pregnancy has brought out the worrier in you too? I guess it must be normal to worry about what you, eat, drink, feel, or even think. After all, there is a little life growing inside you, but what happens when you find yourself worrying about more then just that?

24 Weeks Pregnant

How far along: 24 weeks
Total weight: 
Stretch marks: Still none
Sleep: The other night (you'll already know if you follow me on Twitter) I couldn't sleep because she was kicking all night! I have to admit this has been the case most nights recently. 
Best moments this week: Going a whole week without being sick, you don't realize how happy this made me haha. Also the fact it's been really really sunny this week, Waking up with the sun shining through my window always puts a smile on my face.

Please Don't Forget Me

I have to admit, this blog post has sat in my Drafts for quite a while. I didn't know if I wanted to post it if I was ready to post it, or even if I should. However, after all, it's my blog, to post whatever I feel, and I guess this has been on my mind a lot recently. I'm sorry if it seems like a bit of a depressing subject, but I've always used writing as a way to wash out all my worries. 

Death is normal, but it doesn't make it easy. I don't want to scare anyone but I don't think we ever really 'get over' loss. Losing someone you love is like losing a little piece of your heart, It doesn't matter what you do, or what people say, it can't be undone. I have to admit, grief teaches you a lot about yourself that love never could. Grief helped me become the person I am today, it made me more resilient. It also taught me not to take anything for granted.

Nappy Cake

Since I found out I was expecting little lady, suddenly everyone else was pregnant too. The unfair thing was everyone's due date seemed to be before mine! how unfair is that? There must be something in the water where I live, now 24 weeks pregnant and I know a total of 8 other people who are all expecting!

Forgive my excitement, but I just gave my gift to one of my close friends. If I'm honest when I picked it up I wanted to keep it for myself - does that make me a little selfish? It was so cute I fell in love with it as soon as I saw it. 

Reasons to be happy

My life doesn't always look exactly like I want it to. I spend many days in my pyjamas doing housework, complaining, or wishing that I had someone else's life. However life wouldn't change if I had more money, a better car, a nicer house, it may look more perfect and finished from the outside looking in - but in theory, I would probably still feel the same. The way I feel about myself, how much I open myself to new experiences or new people, the way I carry myself or how often I smile simply because I can and it feels good - none of these things depend on my life situation.

"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means you've decided to look beyond the imperfections"

Little Lady's Cot

Since I found out I was pregnant, I have been looking through the various catalogues - Mothercare, Next, Babies'r'us the list is endless, searching for the perfect cotbed. I'm a pretty indecisive person, usually, i see something, umm and errr but leave the shop without it then regret it later. Recently I purchased her cotbed. It was the first one I ever saw in the showroom part of a Mothercare store. I looked, showed my partner, circled it in the catalogue, went away, looked around, and decided that this particular one was a little bit too pricey. £299 at the time. So I kept looking but my heart wasn't really satisfied with the various other styles I saw. I just know that was the one - you know when you just know? the feeling in the pit of your stomach?

23 Weeks Pregnant

How far along: 23 weeks
Total weight: Sorry, I still haven't got around to weighing myself.
Stretch marks: Nope
Sleep: Perfect, For the past week I've been getting a good solid 8 hours sleep.
Best moments this week: Shopping, honestly there are so many cute little girls clothes. I am absolutely obsessed!

22 Weeks Pregnant

How far along: 22 weeks
Total weight: Haven't weighed myself this week - sorry guys!
Stretch marks: Nope
Sleep: I've actually managed to sleep really well this week, which is a relief! even though the weather is really bothering me at the moment, it's keeping me awake. is it just me or is it so damn hot?
Best moment this week: I have to admit, the best thing about this week has been buying lots of girly things! I'm the only girl in my family - no sisters, girl cousins, nieces. They are all boys! 

Bank Holiday

I have to admit I have been a bit of a boring fart when it comes to being motivated to do things. However, we planned to go to London with my family for two days, staying overnight and it was planned ages ago - Therefore I couldn't back out. So off I went with as much of an open mind as I could.
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